School's fine today. Just kinda tired.
The weather's still fine, cooling in the morning but damn hot in the afternoon.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, Faiz! I'm the weather forecast.
Lessons as per normal. Everything's fine.
I'm in a good mood in school.
Laughing away with the peeps in class, especially Ayumie!(: hehe!
And BIANCA ANG SAID SHE'S A DOG! Haha, she admitted okay. wow~
Then homed at 3. Siap2 then go pick my brother at Ang Mo Kio.
Ate over at the market, then homed.(:

Tomorrow holiday. Any plans people?
Pape picit okay humans.
Bye manusia. ^^

School was fine. SO WAS THE WEATHER. But still humid.
HAHAHAHAHA, happy Faiz? Lol.(:
Lessons were as per normal like usual.
Sleepy like hell cause it rained. But still okay.
Had POA time test. Sumpah rabak. I don't know a single thing.
Then Mr photocopy was the teacher in class!
Know why I called him mr photocopy? Cos his face same with Ms Quek!
Adeq bradeq pe. Hahaha(:
Then homed.
Siap2 all, went to meet bestie! Haha, I miss him. Like duh~
Met up at jurong east. Headed library as I wanna borrow another book.
Then went to have lunch over at mcdonalds. Mcspicy! Sedappppppppppppppp~
Ayumi mesti jeles. Hahahaha.
Then went to meet Max at Kallang. Lepak kejap then balek.(:
So here I am right now.
Today damn kecoh. Tak sukeeee! Don't wanna elaborate.
Bye humans.

School was definitely great. So was the weather.
Kinda cooling, cos it rained. But still abit humid. But at least cooler then the previous days.
Lessons were as per normal.
But all the afternoon lessons just come like that. It's like they didn't tell us earlier ah.
Damn fed-up. Thought gonna finish class at 3. But ended up at 5.
Wasn't really in the mood today. But everything's fine after awhile.
Didn't go for maths lesson, cos kinda tired.
Sat in the canteen and joked around with nana all(:
Hah, then 4 went back to class for chemistry time test.
Still okay lah. Hope I can pass.
Homed at 5.

Nothing much to say. everything happens for a reason.
Byehumans.
&I love Lee Lee baby.

School was great! But definitely not the weather.
It was very very humid, I tell you. Even under the fan I'm sweating.
See how hot it is? Dammit weather. Tsk~
Lessons were as per normal.
PE was cancelled as Mr Aidil wanna teach on chemistry. So yay for me!
Basically I was lazy, like duh. But I guess I was in luck. (:
Had Social Studies time test, which didn't seem like a test to me at all.
Mrs Foo was teaching all the way. And shouting here and there. Irritating.
And trust me, I didn't even know what she's talking about.
I guess only the 5th or 6th time she repeated it again, then I started to understand.
Then homed.

Don't know if I'm meeting baby or not. Cos I wanna go get ciggarettes over at bapak.
If he isn't, perhaps I'll go alone tonight.
Don't know mummy changed my appointment to when.
See yah humans.

I'm feeling kinda sick. Not kinda, I guess I'm really sick.
Went to the hospital yesterday. Actually went to the clinic in the morning, then the doctor referred me to the hospital for my eyes.
Urgh! It hurts so much when they checked my eyes.
The light's too glaring. I kept tearing. But now it's feeling better.
But I spent almost the whole day in hospital. Waste of time. Tsk!
Having an appointment tomorrow over at SGH. In the morning.
So I guess I won't be going to school.
But I don't wanna miss school as well, but I'd no choice. Sigh.
Then went to visit my uncle also. Had dinner with him then sat in the hospital watching tv.
Homed at around 9.30.

Oh yah! I didn't tell you guys about my MT mid-year exam right?
Had exams on friday. Was fine though, everything went right. Heh.
Exams are around the corner. Gotta buck up yea!

Maybe meeting baby later. Just waiting for his text.
See yah humans.

Sorry for not updating for the last few days.
Kinda busy you see.
Overall this few days i've been fine.
Enjoying life to the fullest.
Don't really bother about relationship now~
So yeah! I'm gna live my life like never.(:

School was great, everything feels great.
I don't even think of boyfriend. Haha, to tell the truth, I really don't.
I concentrated on my work, worked with my friends, laugh with my friends.
Everything was great. Very great.
I guess it's a big step I went. I deserve a pat on my shoulder! *pat on the shoulder*.
Hahahahahaha.(:(: It's good to see all my friends around me, telling jokes, caring for one another.
It feels good. Seriously.
And I just talked to mummy. She said it's a must to go to Secondary 5.
Argh. I don't know about that. I argued with her but I won, cos she didn't know what else to say.
Hahaha! But fuck it. It's my life. My education. My dream.
Cehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ hahaha!

I guess I'll be meeting boyfriend tomorrow. I hopeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
I'll be picking him up most probably. Yay yay!~
But I won't put high hopes on him. Nahh, don't wna get hurt again.
I'll live life to the fullest. Yeah people? ^_^

MT exams tomorrow. Gonna go revise a little.
Just a little. heh.

I'm sorry guys that I broke down in class today. Twice somemore.
Can't stop the tears to just come.. Really.
Maybe what Mrs Teo said was right, I haven't made my own decision.
Sigh. I don't know.
Life's like this. People change. And eventually, they change without us knowing.
And now, true colours shown.
From now on, I'm not gonna cry. I'm gonna enjoy life to the fullest!
Agree with me friends?!?
Heh. Thanks to you people who made my day. hugs!

This is for boyfriend. don't even think he reads. ):

I remember...The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember...When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn
Do you remember..?When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And I remember..When my father thought you were a burglar
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn
I remember.. The way you read your books,yes I remember
The way you tied your shoes,yes I remember
The cake you loved the most,yes I remember
The way you drank you coffee,I remember
The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
When we caught a shooting star,yes I remember
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And the way you smile at me,yes I remember

*I remember - Mocca

I miss this boy. And I really wanna thank him.
For everything that he've done, just for me.
He has listened to my complaints, listen to me cry, listen to me nag. Seen me got real mad, seen me got real sad, seen me got real crazy. He's my bestfriend. I've never had someone like this before. I've ever hurt him before and I really regret it so much. I've never wanted to hurt him or make him sad. Neither do I even have the guts to lose him at all. I know I'm selfish, but I want him all alone. I can't even imagine myself without him. But don't get it all wrong. He's just a friend. More than a friend actually. Everything that I wanted, other than boyfriend. I'm very lucky to have him, I can say. And he promised me friends till eternity! Right bestie? ((:

School was fine today. But very tiring thoughhhhhhh.
Had PE. Ran 2.4km today. Peh penatttttttttttttt!~
But still made it though.(: heh heh.
Then had English time practise. Tried to concentrate but I can't. Don't know why. But I still did try to do my summary despite all the noise outside the classroom. There was this fire thingy at the parade square. The fire-fighters came over to school to teach the sec3's how to use the fire extinguisher and stuffs. Don't know, don't care. Just continued my work with Hidayu. Managed to highlight all the points for summary, but I don't know if it's right or wrong. It was too noisy to concentrate. Argh! But nevermind, at least I did my best. Hope it's still okay. Then had Social Studies test. Cock-up. I can't remember a single shit. Confirm fail. Damn. Then had Social Study lesson till 3.15. Then homed. Having sore eyes right now. Irritating. I guess I gotta catch a nap. Eyes need rest also.

Anyway, this is for Eerah, Sammie and Lee lee babies:
Thanks for the concern babies. I'm fine, I suppose. I'm getting used to all these. So no worries about whatever that I'm posting, cos I'm just letting out my anger right here. So, don't worry too much about me. I'll be fine. I'm now just concentrating on my school work and stuffs. About him, I'll try to put one side. But I still love him. Just that he doesn't wanna tell me his stuffs and all. And he tries to avoid me by not replying to my messages and not picking up my calls. But I guess I'll get used to it soon. Thanks again for everything babies. I love you guys!

HANDPHONE ASAL TAKNAK BUANG?

KALAU TAKNAK REPLY MSG, TEROS TERANG CAKAP TAKMO MSG LAGI LAH!

ASAL BUAT AKU MACAM ANJENG? PUKIMAK _l_

AKU DAH MALAS AH. KAU BUAT APAPE KAU NAK LAH EH.

AKU TAKKAN MSG KAU LAGI.

SUKE HATI KAU NAK MSG AKU TIDAK.

AKU DAH PENAT AH CARIK2 KAU.

KAU TAK PERNAH CARIK AKU.

AKU RASE KAU TAKDE AKU PUN LAGI HAPPY AH.

BOLEH ENJOY2 KAT LUAR.

I don't even know when you're saying the truth and when you ain't.

In every relationship there will be misunderstandings.
But the both parties will have to learn to walk on together.
Although it may make you have some grudges in between, but the love will fight them off.
Love is strong. Love is sacrifice.
Every little thing you sacrifice for the other party can make the other party happy.
Every little thing means a lot.
Take me for example.
I just had an misunderstand with boyfriend last night. And I didn't ask before i just said he's in the wrong. In the end I hurt him. I was also hurt in the first place cos I thought it was him who did it. But it wasn't. It was someone else. And it caused this misunderstanding. In the end the someone else explained to me, it was him. Not boyfriend. I felt guilty. I didn't even bother asking if it's the truth and I just wronged him like that. He was mad. Definitely. He even did silly things. I called him a million times, and he picked up to say he didn't wanna talk to me. I cried. It makes me feel like I'm not a wonderful girlfriend. Neither am I a good companion of his life. And how I complained about boyfriend to bestie. How I said he was in the wrong and how I thought he was unfaithful to me. I was wrong. I was the one who had those indecent thoughts of him. He never did such things to me. I didn't know until that someone explained. We talked things out and everything was fine. Lucky me. I wouldn't wanna lose someone so dearest to me. Never wna..

Life's unfair. Whenever fate doesn't make you two come along, you guys have to leave each other no matter what it is. You'll also have to face consequences that you didn't do wrong. And you've to always cherish the someone who loved you with all his heart. No matter how bad he treats you, how he disturbs you, how he calls you names, that's the way he shows how much he loves you. Everyone have different ways of showing their love. And yes, I've felt all his love, right here... In my heart. (:

I LOVE LILY LEE LEE BABYGIRL!

SHE'S MINE AND ONLY MINE!

FIEEE, NO CHANCE~ SHE'S MINE. ^^

I LOVE YOU BBYG.

I'LL BE HERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU NEED ME.

I'M JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY.

GO OUT TOGETHER SOON HUNN!~

School was fine yesterday.
Changed our ez-link cards to the new one already~
Was then called up by VP during assembly to see him at the principal's office.
Argh! We all headed to meet them then the principal talk cock.
Actually I thought he really wanna suspend us, in the end, he gave us chance.
Wtf? Then why in the hell did he say so much? Waste of time~
Then had to write reflection form. Didn't really bother, so wrote a very short one only.
Then sat there till 10, headed back to class for POA.
Got back our ez-link at around 1.30. Everyone was laughing around cos their ez-link pictures were from primary6. Kekek sak!
Ade yg center parting. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. *You know I know*
Then had life-skills till 6. Quite fun and really it makes me wake up.
Wake up as in make me realise the time for having fun is over. Gotta pull up my socks.
Had a survey form, then homed~
Reached home, bathed, online for awhile. Then baby text to ask me to go over to meet him at the usual place.
Then something happened. Don't really wanna talk about it though. We quarrelled.
It hurts, but I can't do a single thing. I don't wanna lose him as well. So I just treated as nothing happened. Fuck it, but I can't stop accepting the reality. He's lieing, I know it.
But maybe he isn't? I don't know.....................

School was fine for today.
Had revision for maths today. After recess had geography test.
Did some last minute revision. Argh~ But luckily I can remember them. (:
Then had MC. Did composition and letter writing, then homed at 3.
Was otp with bestie just now. He's funny!
Bile mase ade orang mandi kat kedai kopi? Betol nye slenger sia~ Hahahahahahah!
Sorry ah bestie, I was just kidding~
Meeting baby later and going geylang. Tataw jadi ke tidak lah~
See how things goes. Bye humans ^^

School was definitely not fine. Almost got suspended.
But thank God I didn't.
Was called up by Ms Tan as I didn't attend Life skill's program yesterday.
Was absent so there was an excuse.
Our class was also called up. Was really shocked to hear that our class cheated for the Social studies test yesterday.
Actually wasn't shock lah. It's like normal? Haha!
And the fucked up thing is that I didn't do anything wrong and I was punished.
It's because of my absenteesm. Dammit.
Then principal said must get suspended. He will give a letter then he'll send us home.
If we wanna come back to school, then we've to call our parents down with us to give a fucking good excuse why they should let us back.
Damn paranoid. Tears welled up my eyes. Fucking scared. Can't lose this position in schooling.
I cried. Michelle too. Argh!
Then VP decided to give a chance. Go and ask if Mrs Teo wanna give us another chance.
We went up, and I told Mrs Teo that I will work hard and come to school everyday.
And yeah, luckily I was fine.
Lessons were as per normal. Had Maths test. Mampos~ I didn't even know anything.
I mean, I know lah. But I forgot sak! Argh. Guess I gonna fail this test.
The rest of the lessons were fine. Chemistry as usual was sleepy like hell.
Boring like fuck. ): Almost fell asleep. Eyes were like half-opened. Rabak.
Then after school went canteen and seat around with Faiz and Kimmy.
After awhile, we went off together. Then I trained home as Kimmy and Amir going Faiz's house.

I'm feeling very sleepy. Baby just asked if I wanna go Geylang with him.
He's going to work. He said it's gonna end late.
I told him to go on himself. But he said he'll ask if it ends late.
Maybe going with him. But sleepy like fuck. -_- Haiya..
See how things goes lah. Bye humans.

School was fine yesterday.
Had MT test, which I didn't know about it. But it was alright. (:
Homed at 1.3o as we had geography lesson at timetable time.
Didn't finish the work that was given, but just handed it up.
Homed at 2.30.
Met baby under my block at around 5.15. Went to meet bapak and bought ciggs.
Baby homed at around 8.

Didn't go to school today as I had fever from last night.
Slept all the way till 12. Was woken up by baby's msg.
He was otw to bedok to attend his cousin's funeral. His cousin passed away yesterday due to accident over at Dover. Sad ain't it?
People tend to leave suddenly. So always cherish the people around you.
Rotting at home right now while waiting for baby.
Actually planned to go with baby but I was not feeling really well and baby also overslept.
Haha! Baby overslept so mummy went off first without telling him. He mengamok sak~
Who asked you to oversleep? Baby baby. Haha~

I don't know why but I'm missing baby so much.
Hope he can come over but we'll see how things goes.
I guess I'll be meeting him later on after the funeral and stuffs.
Just waiting for his text. (:

Ahhhh, yesterday was fucking tired.
First met baby over at platform cos going abg's house to wash his uniform.
Wasn't quite in the mood as I quarreled with mummy.
But baby still made me laugh. That makes me love him so much!
Trained to lakeside and bused to abg's house. We stopped over at the shopping center and bought some cakes for my babyboy, Nanda.
Then we walked over to abg's house, then suddenly it was drizzling.
Argh, fucked up. Fucking cold and the rain got heavier. Luckily we reached abg's house before it rained cats and dogs. Can't bear getting wet.
Slacked while over at abg's house, played with Nanda, ate some curry macaronies. :)
Then went off around 4.30 as baby wanna go Yishun to add on to his tattoos.
Trained to Yishun, then bused to Nee Soon.
Most of the shops were closed. There were this two tattoo shops beside each other.
Adeq-bradeq. Selalunye baby go to the adeq's shop, but he was closed already.
So he decided to go over to the Abg's shop. Bnyk sak bangalah. And the smell of alcohol in the room was choking me. I feel my lungs burning with the over-whelming smell of alcohol.
Waited till atround 10.30 before it's baby's turn. We reached around 6.40. See how long we waited!
And finally it's baby's turn. Sat beside him and videoed the whole scene. Gelih sak!
But when baby was doing his tattoo, not much blood came out. It was only after the whole thing, then blood start oozing out. But it was quite nice. Now one hand's full, almost.
Then we bused to bukit merah as we knew we can't make it for the train.
Then luckily there was still bus back to Clementi. Baby had to walk alone. Kesian seh~
And he still told me it was near to his place. But it was so far that when I reached home, he haven't! Argh.
But he reached home after awhile, then he went to sleep.

Sentosa tonight? Not confirmed, but most probably.
But baby's sick. Argh. I'm sick as well. How?
Will update when I get back okay. Bye humans ^^

7th April - Tuesday:
Didn't go to school, as usual. Same reason, malas!
Hah, then met Nana over at cck to lepak.
Ate at macdonald's for breakfast, then headed to the block in front of lot.
Slacked around, then around 1.30, went to meet bestie!
Hahahahahaha. He met me wait for him.
Tapi takpe, dah biase kan. ^^
Then met him over at lakeside. Then went to Jurong point to have lunch!
KFC ah gang~ He owed me cos he made me wait. Hehe.
Then he made me laugh like an idiot over at KFC. Keep making stupid actions.
After lunch, smoked, then planned where to go. I made the decision to go over to Mustafa. Cos Singapore dah lah kecik, no place to go. So boring siak. Kalau boleh, I wanna migrate ah!
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Then reached Mustafa, stakat pergi toilet je siak! Binget giler. -_-
Then no more plans, decided to call Fieeeeeeeee! Met him over at Jurong East as we decided to go over to Vivo.
Then baby text me last minute to meet him over at Tiong Bahru.
I pretended that I didn't know them and went in through another door. But I couldn't make it as I kept giggling to myself. Ade je orang ingat aku giler. HAHA!
Then when we reached Outram, I went beside bestie. But Fie still didn't notice me. Kekek.
At last when we were walking, then he noticed me pulak. Laugh~ He's cute ah, with those braces! heh heh. Tapi sedih kan Fie, tak leh keluar same same nan 'ehem ehem'. But no worries, one day we will go out together okay!
Then I went to Tiong Bahru to meet baby. Lepak jap, then trained home.

8th April - Wednesday:
Went to school. Nothing much happened.
Quarreled with mummy. Irritated. Fed up.
I felt like I am nothing in the family. Argh! Dammit.

Today:
Had Apex day over at school. Went to school late with Nana.
Smoked at block 5 with Jeslyn. Haha! Long time no see. Kehsiao sak.
Then went into school with her. They already started with the cheers over at the Hockey pitch.
Can feel the spirit. Heh. Our session is the second one at 10, so we slacked in the canteen.
Had some food cos hungry like hell. Then chatted and stuffs. Around 10, we headed up to the parade square for our captain's ball match. Fucking hot, perspire like hell!
But it was fun. Finished everything at 1.30. Trained home.
Slept for awhile, then baby msged around 5. Met him around 6 over at platform, then decided to go have dinner first. Then baby changed his mind and decided to go Queensway.
Then in the end tak jadi pulak, cos he's tired and sick.
Then Abg white called, asked him over to get some stuffs at Geylang.
Maybe nanti going club with baby. Just waiting for his call.

My body's hurting like hell. Muscles feel like it's tearing. My backs aching.
Gonna have some rest first. While waiting for baby's call. Bye humans! ^^

HAPPY 1 MONTH BABY LOVE!

Yesterday was our first month.
This is for you baby (L)
I've never expected us to come this far. I expected another result. But you proved to me we can go on, 1 year, 2 years, 10 years, or who knows for the rest of our lifes like how you promised to stay with me till eternity. Till the day we die. I've never had someone special like you. Although selalunye you suke tengok pompuan, tapi you tawu you ade I, dah takya pompuan lain. You've shown me the meaning of love. I wanna stay with you forever. I love you so much, and I know you love me too!

Metup with baby yesterday. Went to buy ciggies then lepaked over at mak's house for awhile. Then headed to abg's house to lepak and visit Nanda. My baby boy! HAHAHAH. Then around 5.15 we went off to meet Romie over at Redhill cos they going to Geylang for working purposes. But in the end when we reached there, no one reached yet. Baby sot sak. Then I had my dinner then went to cityhall. Went to walk around then lepak. Saw Dan at Penin then he decided to join us. Lepak for awhile over at Funan then trained home. Before baby got down the train, he whispered in my ear " Happy 1 month anni babygirl. " Awwwwwwwwwwwww~ I melted and smiled widely to him. Sweetest thing ever.<3

As usual, didn't go to school today. Damn lazy! Ape nak jadi seh Jermine~ mampos aku. Nana text to ask if she could come over, cos she's lazy like me! haha. Kite sume permalas~ Then slacked at home, chatted. Then her cousin came over. Then baby took half day off and came over as well. Around 1.30, they went off. Baby slept over at my house till around 5. Bathed and all then headed to buy ciggies over at bapak's. Chatted and all over at the coffee shop. Around 7.30, headed to bapak's house to have dinner. Peh sedap! Fuhhhhh~ Mak masak sedap sak. Kalau ade orang boleh masakkn gini untok aku hari hari, aku cium dier sak. FAKE. Then around 8.30, sent baby over to bus stop, then I went home.
I must go to school tomorrow already! So many days been absent. Confirm miss a lot of stuffs. Hope I didn't just say it, but do it as well. :/
Bye humans ^^.

Waiting for baby's text. Confirm hundred percent chop he's still asleep.
HAHA!

Yesterday:
Tiring. Was caring day. Went to blk 225 if I'm not wrong to collect newspapers from the residents. Some caring nak mampos, kasi bnyk giler. Some rude like fuck, like that dog woman. Grrrrrr. But overall we got a lot of newspapers. Kinda glad to see the outcome. We did take pictures, but it's with Pamela~ So maybe when I get it, then I'll upload it here. ^^
After the whole event, we were allowed to leave the place and go home.
So, I, Nana, Eerah, Amir, Ahjay, Afiq, Faiz And Kimmy went to lot to get Ananas(:
Then headed to RC to eat. I went off after a shortwhile, as I wanna get some sleep before heading to pick brother up.
Reached home around 2. Went to do somethings, then slept at 3.30. Woke up at 5.
Rushed to prepare as I was already late. Then reached brother's school at around 6.40.
Had dinner over at AMK hub, then homed.

I think I'm going town with baby and his brothers later. After I bring brother over to his class. Grr, if not I can go out early and meet baby early. Didn't get to meet him yesterday, misssssssssed him. ): Tomorrow is our special day. Heh! Can't waittttttttttt~
I'll update about what happen tonight okay! Bye humans ^^