This is gonna be a long post. So people hang on with it yeah?

School was fine today, but tiring like helllllllll.
My head was going wild like roller coaster, my eyes hurt like fuck, my throats sored, my body ache. But I still tried my best for school. I tried very hard on concentrating on the lessons.

I almost gave up, but I didn't.
Lessons were as per normal. During assembly had malay dance from the ex-malay dancers.

Then Marina Yusof also came over to our school. She's gorgeous!
Then after assembly went to get a drink, then headed back up to class.
Had maths lesson till 3. Had geography till 4. Had physics time practise till 5.
Damn tired. Body aching. Rushed home right after school. Real headache.
Just took temperature. 38.2 degrees. Urgh!
Lazy wanna go see doctor. Baby didn't text me too. Damn fucked up. No mood at all lah.
Did my work and now here i'm blogging, whereas chatting with Nana Jaynes.
Missed her laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Going sheesha at her house this saturday. Maybe tonning with her also.(: Hehe!

I'm missing everyone. My babygirls, my babyboys.
Especially Lilly lee lee baby, Nana Jaynes baby.
Lee lee b, thanks for asking about me. I'm fine, I guess. I'm trying to get used to not having him in my life. Maybe that's not true, cos I know I can't make it. He's everything to me, almost. But I know I have you in my life babygirl. I know you're always there for me. I know you love me like how I love you! I know all these. I really wanna thank you for being there. I really wanna thank you for sending me those sweet messages and putting a smile on my face. I wanna thank you for the video in your blog that made tears well up in my eyes. I miss you too babygirl. And I'll miss you every single day. Like you said, we may be apart in distance, but never at heart.(: I love you bbyg. Hugs! (L)

I miss boyfriend. )': I swear a lot. I don't even know what he's busy about. I've been putting hopes every single day that he'll text to tell me to meet him. But he haven't. I know I shouldn't have this thoughts, but yes I do! Aku takot dier ade pompuan lain. Urgh! I hope not, cos he assures me that he loves only me.. Sigh. I don't know. Tears always well up when I think about him. I miss him. I miss him hugging me, teasing me, kissing me, saying ' I love you ' to me, making me smile whenever I'm down. I don't know when I can get all these again. I've never loved someone this much before. Is it a wrong decision? Should i listen to my friends that tell me not to put so much faith in the relationship? I guess not. Exams are around the corner. I don't wanna let this affect me. And I will not. I guess not...

Thanks for everyone's whose there for me. I'll try my best to not think too much about him. I'll try... I'll try...
I can't. ):):):):):