I'm damn bored right now .
Someone, save me from all this boredom please ?
Actually planned to go meet Ghufran, but he paitaw.
Babi tol ~ Last minute he had to go meet his ex-girlfriend.
Sumpah I damn angry. But fuck it lah.
So stayed at home then.

Any plans tomorrow people? I ain't going to school..
Most probably....

Alohaaaaaa~
I just woke up, that's why I didn't go to school.
Damn sleepy, reached home around 3 am in the morning.
Didn't go home on saturday, haha.
So let's talk about my whole two days outside yeah!

Saturday:
Brought little brother to his class at Ang Mo Kio.
And I made Kiki, Nana Jaynes babygirl and Ampai wait for me at Bukit Batok.
Sorry! Haha. Trained to Bukit Batok, and saw Linsa in the train.
Chatted awhile, then off I went to Bukit Batok.
Went to get my stuffs first, before meeting them at bus interchange.
Apologised and treated them water before they are happy sia. HAHAHA.
Babi tol~ Then walked to bus-stop around Bukit Batok polyclinic.
Had some miscommunications, but in the end chose to go to Vivo.
Bused there, and I swear my ass hurt! Kinda long trip sia. Kiwak.
Headed there and walked around, met Ampai's friends.
Walked around, chatted around, crapped around like crazy people.
Then babygirl wanna void her curler. HAHA! Finally depat void eh girl^^
Then headed to have dinner over at HarbourFront market(?).
In the end when we reached there, all decided not to eat. Ape dah.
Just drank and went off to smoke, then headed back to Bukit Batok.
Waited for Kiki to get his stuffs for his Ghost hunting trip.
Then we sent him to Mrt station and bid farewell to him.
Decided to stay over at babygirl's house, so bused to Bukit panjang.
Went to her house and slacked for awhile, then decided to go look for prepaid.
Prepaid dabes sakkkkkkk. Peh rabak! Then went to look for prepaid but sume dabes.
Sot siak. haha! Then had no choice but to use public phone to call.
Called Hairil as he texted me. Hehe! Sorry eh baby prepaid I dabes. At least I called you kan!(:
Then saw babygirl's friend under her void deck. Slacked with them till around 3+.
Then headed back to talk with babygirl.
Love talking to her. We talked about everything, almost everything! Haha.
Then went to sleep at 4.30. Thought of waking up at 5.30, but when the alarm went off, I just snooze it and went back to sleep. HAH!
Bnyk aku nak bangun kul 5.30. Tak bangun bangun pun!

Sunday:
Woke up at 10.30. HAHA. Then lazed around in bed, then babygirl wants to call her baby.
Called Kiki, then decided to meet at Bukit Batok and teman him to ITE Bukit batok for his soccer. Had breakfast first, then washed up, prepared and off we headed to Bukit Batok.
Went to meet Kiki and Ampai under the void deck near the bus stop.
Slacked for awhile, then waited for Kiki to go home and get his soccer stuffs.
Then off we walked to ITE Bukit Batok.
Peh jauhhhhhhhhhh!~ Waduh. Damn tired ah. Damn hot somemore. Hate the heat):
Finally sampai pun. Not many people have reached yet.
So we slacked for awhile, then accompanied babygirl to pasar biru to get some drinks.
Damn far lah. But we still made it.
Went to get our drinks, then headed back to the court.
Saw Fadz! HAHAH. He was shocked to see me, so am I.
Then watched the soccer match. Kinda sad cos Kiki's team lost 6-3.
Fadz's team won lah. Damn irritating. Dorg main ganas sak!
After the whole game, went to lepak with Rafi and his two other friends.
Waited for Rafi to get his stuffs cos he's going for another soccer match at East coast Park.
Then I accompanied him over. But he forgot his clothes. Stupid boy. haha.
Then around 9.30, we went to get cigarettes and slacked around.
Slacked till around 2.30, then he sent me home(:

Today:
Actually did wake up in the morning, but was damn sleepy.
So I went back to sleep till 2.30. Damn nice!^^
Then here I am online. Gotta clean up the house later.
Damn lazy and tired... But still gotta do it. If not I'm gonna get naggings!
Bye humans.

Alright, here I am blogging in the morning.
Definitely one of the reason is, I am bored.
And the other? I don't know either.
I'm now rotting at home, looking at little brother do his work.
So bored....
Anyway, Ghufran paitaw! He told me he's gonna call me after his game last night.
But guess what? He didn't call me at all. I waited for him okay.
Bodoh. You will get it from me when we meet up. Swine~

Plans later
- Bringing brother to his class.
- Meeting babygirl and Kiki over at Bukit Batok.
- Going get some stuffs over at Bukit Batok.
- Maybe going town.
- I don't know what's the plan afterwards.
Haha! haha!

Kay stoppit.
I'm damn bored. Now chatting with Norriz.
To tell the truth, I missed him.
For your information, he's my ex-boyfriend.
I left him for someone else who's a big bastard. ( LUTFI!)
Haha. So, yah. Life's unfair, so I didn't make the right decision, blames on me.
Booo Jermine~
Fuck it lah. I'm in no mood for relationship right now.
So, let's just enjoy life to the fullest. (Hope so!)

Stim jom stim!^^

Finally, went to school today.
Damn bored.
Got to know some results of mine.
Passed only english. -_- Shit.
Lessons were a bore.
Damn sleepy, and still having hang over.
Had photo taking session. Satisfied with my picha ^^
Finished school at 12.30.
Met babygirl outside swiss cottage, cos ade hal.
Then met her at the bus stop, waited for kiki and company, then went off to lepak at Greenview.
Around 2.30 bused to bukit batok, then I trained home.
Here I am chatting with Ghufran and blogging.

What plans do I have tmr?
I'm not sure...
Mummy told me maybe I've to bring and fetch brother.
Damnass. ): See how things goes la.
Bye humans.

I haven't been going to school for the past four days.
Damn lazy...
So many things going through my head.
Tomorrow have to go to school, cos heard that there's photo taking for graduating students right? Hah.

I'm yet sober.
I don't know.
Everything's still going fine, I suppose.
Ah. ):
Anyway, step-brother came by just now.
Kinda surprised cos it's been a long time since i last saw him.
He brought his girlfriend along, sweet looking lady.
Chatted and stuffs.
He's in university right now. Woo~(:
Hope to see him again soon.

I'm lazy. damn tired. I don't know why.
Anw, I want my eye-brow piercing back badly.
Gonna pierce them back, I don't care.
I want both sides now. hehe.^^
Bye humans.

I need drugs.
I need alcohol.
I need cigarettes.
Give me some of this, someone?

Should I go to school tomorrow?
Should I go back to Ciko?
Should I listen to my heart?
Should I quit school?
Please, someone save me from all this thoughts.
I'm dying slowly, very slowly...

Hello everyone.
It's been a long time since I last blogged. Been kinda busy and fucked up last few days.
I'm no longer with Ciko though, but we still contact.
But his life's fucked up as well, and baby please don't awol lah!
Jangan macam gini. I'm still there for you okay. Anything just beep.
Hope you can get to read this...

I didn't go to school for the past 3 days.
Currently at Kiki's house with Nana Jaynes babygirl.
So many things happened this few days. Damn fucked up.
I don't wanna talk about it, so yah. Don't ask.
Anyway, thanks to those who tagged me to ask me to cheer up and stay strong.
I will try, I promise.
Now, I'm in need for money. Dammit shit.
Where can I get fast cash?
I need 15 bucks for 29May, 40bucks for hair-curler.
I need money for clothes for 29May. Mane nak dapat? Grrrrrrrrrr~
People, any ideas where I can get fast cash? Tag me eh.
But please, don't give stupid ideas. I know some people without brains will.
Stupid people without brains are not entertained.

I'll post again soon, I suppose.
Anytime when I'm free again~
Bye humans.

We have to be like strangers.
We can never be like before.
We have been torned apart.
We will never be back together.
I didn't expect you to do this to me.
I trusted your words and it melts me.
But I got to know those were lies,
you lied to me all this while.
Now I'm in a dilemma,
cos I don't know what you said was true and which wasn't.
It hurts so much to know all this,
cos I trust you like never.
You went through thick and thins with me,
I went through it with you too.
But you did this to me,
how could you?
Why did you choose me as your prey,
when I didn't even expect you to prey on someone you said you loved.
Baby,
it's all over I suppose.
Takecare and farewell sweetheart.):

Labels: It's never the same anymore.):

Yesterday:
Didn't have to bring brother to his class as his class was cancelled today.
So text Nana Jaynes babyg to ask her out.
Siap2 all then waited for her to text before I meet her at Clementi platform.
When receieved her text, went out and waited for her at the platform.
She missed called, so I went in the train then tibe2 she came in through the door.
Haha! Giler. We laughed and joked like no one's business.
Went bugis first, as she wanna look for her mum's present.
Mother's day!~
I didn't get anything cos I'm totally broke..
Kinda sad though, cos nothing caught her eye.
Then went to have lunch over at burger king. Tried the new burger which tasted like both Zinger and Mcspicy. Dah pandai eh!~ HAHAHA.
Then went to smoke outside burger king.
Decided to go arab street to walk around. But went to Banquet first to get some fruits to eat.
Sat outside and eat then talk craps.
Then walked to arab street. It's been a long time since I've went there.
Ade2 pun pergi isap shisha. Haha!~
Walked around, then we bought some stuffs.
Then decided to train to town. Walked around fareast, then babyg said wanna go marina.
Tsk. It's been a long time since I last went. Ntah. So I just said okay and followed.
Bused to peninsula first. Walked around to look for clothes and stuffs.
Nothing much caught our eye, so we decided to walk to Marina.
Walke through Citylink, chatted like no one's business.
Then went Marina, walked around. Saw Nana and Lindsay. It's been sucha long time since I last saw them. Haha. Nana rambot maut pe!~
Babyg said she wanna get subway cookies! Yumyum~ I got myself 3 as well.(=
Then babyg went to get roses for her mum, 3 white roses.
White roses represents unity, love, peace, and some other things. Forgot.
Then went to slack over at slope.
Saw Farizah. Talked to her and stuffs, and saw damn many familiar faces lah.
Around 8.45, headed to fourstick as babyg wanna meet her ex-bf.
Around 9 plus, trained to woodlands to meet kawan baik.
Then went to walk around and stuffs, and had dinner with him.
^^ Then homed around 12.30.

Today:
Slept all the way till 6.30pm. Just woke up not long ago.
I know I'm like a pig. No plans what, sleep only lah.
Fuck it okay. Who cares?

Just got to know some sad news. Damn sad I tell you.):
No one was there for me. Dammit. I don't feel as though I've a boyfriend.

You've been wonderful in everything you did,
but it hurts to hear when you said you understood me.
I wanted you to catch me when I fall,
but you weren't there when I needed you the most.
When I went through my life story, I saw bits and pieces of you and me.
But I realised it was just a fairy tale.
It hurts when you just left me behind, running alone.
I lost the war, and right now I'm lagging behind, waiting for you to come rescue me.
I wanted everything to be like before, cos right now, I'm fighting the war all alone.
Save me, rescue me, protect me.
Please, I beg you baby. Never leave me fighting alone right here again.

Ah hello!
Had maths paper 2 today.
Kinda tough, but managed to finish. And guess what, I did quite a number of careless mistakes.
Damn. Thought still can manage, but careless mistakes...
Hais. Then our art paper is postponed to next week.
Ain't gonna go anyway, so it doesn't really affect.
Slacked around first, then homed around 12.30.
Reached home around 1, bathed, slept all the way till 5.
I'm late for picking brother up. Quickly changed, then bused to pick brother up.
Had dinner over at the market. Saw uncle, so had dinner with him.
Then homed after awhile.

I've got no plans for tomorrow. Haiya.
I guess I'll just sleep? Vesak day tido je. Okay pe.
Kan? haha.(:

Ah hi! Haha.
Actually having school at 11, but guess what? I woke up at 6.45am.
Received baby's msg, saying he's coming over.
He reached around 8. He slept for awhile, before we prepared ourselves.
He sent me to choa chu kang mrt, then he went off back to camp.
Rushed to school, as I thought I was already late. But nah, I still saw people waiting for bus.
Reached school, revised a little over at the canteen, then headed up to the hall.
Had chemistry exams. Still okay though~ I think it's because of the last minute revision.
At least it helped me yeah?^^
Then sat at the canteen with usual peeps, while choosing for Nadiah what song to sing for her competition. All the best yawwwwww SITI! Oops!
Then around 1 we headed to lot to look for Nadiah's dress.
But nothing caught her eye although she tried some dresses which suited her.
Then met Nana Jaynes babyg over at control station.
And guess what? I saw Yongli Darling! Awwwwww~
I don't even know when was the last time we last met. I guess it was like 2 years ago?
Damn long lah. And we lost contact somemore. Haha, he's girlfriend damn tall lah.
I can't imagine okay. But Love is Blind. Right? Right.
Then went to walk around with babyg, then accompanied her to get bubble tea and sushi.
After awhile headed home to change, then bused to babyg's house to shisha.(:
Shisha-ed, crapped, chatted, laughed like mad, ate, cook together.
Went off around 7.30, then bused to teckwhye to meet Yongli and Terry.
Sumpah dah lame tak jumpe dorg lah!
But we didn't manage to meetup for a long time, so we took the lrt together, before we went on seperate ways as Yongli wanna go pick his girlfriend up.
So I train-ed home.
Here I am. Bored as ever.
Maths paper2 tomorrow. Gna go revise in awhile.
Where's my babyboy? Argh. Tak msg pun!
Bye humans.

Yesterday:
Had english exams. Wahhhh~
Rabak I tell you. My summary, my letter writing.
Aduh. Confirm fail, or just pass.
No hope.):):
Went home, siap2, then met Nana Jaynes babyg.
Met her at clementi platform, cos she wanna go vivo to get her slippers.
Went to get her slippers, then walked around.
Had KFC for dinner. Then chatted.
Went to smoke, then walked around.
Then had this shop selling curlers. They helped us curled our hair.
Okay, sumpah muke aku kelakar~ Then the guy forced us to buy the curler.
Babyg gave 20bucks for deposit. By next month must fork out 100. I pay 50, she pay 50.
Haiyaaaaaaaaaa. Mane nak dapat duit seh? Mampos.
Then walked around, babyg keep saying she wanna void. Cos kite takde duit!~
Haha. She damn funny lah. Then I decided to go lot1 to get the cotton on bag.
But dah takde. ): Haiya.
Then went to get bubble tea, smoked, then home.
Oh yah, I lost my keys. Damn shit.
Luckily mummy wasn't mad with me. Nasib baik aku!

Today:
HAPPY 2ND MONTH BABYBOY! I love you, mwah.

Had geography and physics exam.
I tell you, damn cock up.
My geography almost all blank. Physics at least I tried all of them. But I forgot all the formulas cos I didn't revise a single shit at all.
No mood langsungg~
I don't know why also. So don't ask.
After school, went to lot to get some stuffs for baby. 2nd month, but was nothing much.
Hope he likes it though. Cos it was nothing much.
Homed after buying all the stuffs.
Spent almost 3 hours doing it. I was damn sleepy but I persevere. Heh!
Finally finished around 4! hehe.
Then fell asleep while waiting for baby's msg.
He msged me around 6, telling me to meet him in 10mins time.
I rushed like hell sak! Then saw him downstairs, I ran down.
But baby was in a bad mood. He was being blamed for doing something he didn't.
And maybe he will be going DB for 40days. Sumpah aku sedih giler.
But no matter what baby, I akan tunggu you sampai you keluar okay? Mwah.
Then went to Mak's house to get ciggarettes, then went to wait for bus with baby while he went home.
I homed too, and here I am blogging.
I haven't revised anything for tomorrow sak. Hais.
Gonna burn midnight oil i guess. Can't make it sia kalau I keep never revise. Mampos sak aku.
Kay la, bye humans!

Boyfriend, I hope everything's gna be fine alright. I really wouldn't hope that you will go in, again. I hope ibu will forgive you. Baby, I'm really trying my best to be there for you when you need me. And I hope you won't neglect all this things that I'm trying to do for you. Baby, you know yourself how much I love you and how much I need you right here. But everything seems to change. You're no longer the Ciko I know. You dah berubah. You cakap I yg berubah ni sume, tapi you fikir balek sendiri, sape yg dah berubah ni sekarang? You no longer call me at night, cos you're tired. In the past, you don't even mind if you're tired or not, you still insisted that you wna talk to me before you go to sleep.
You no longer msg me almost every minute. In the past, no matter how busy you are, you still msg me.
Everything's changing right now. But you must always remember, my love for you will never change okay baby? I hope what you did last night wasn't on purpose. I trust whatever you said, but don't misuse the trust I've for you. I love you so much baby. You know that don't cha?

Yesterday's damn fucked up. Woke up around 11. Watch tv and all till around 1, then siap2 all, then sent brother to his class at amk. I totally didn't know what to do after I've sent him, cos I was damn bored. And everyone seems so busy. Don't understand why also. So damn pissed off, then decided to head home and sleep. Then Lilly babyg asked me out when I was sleeping half way. I couldn't make it cos mummy's making so much noise. Damn irritating lah I tell you. I almost wanna slap her face okay! Haha, but of course, I couldn't do that okay. I love my mum no matter what. But I made my house phone crack. Okay, sorry. I was damn pissed off. But in the end, nothing happened lah. Went to have dinner with mummy at 'Botak Jones'. Damn appetizing I tell you. It's been sucha long time since I'd stirlon steak. Wooooo, sedap. ^^ Went home and was otp with bestfriend. Then had a conversation with mummy that made him laugh. Sumpah kurang ajar.
Mummy,' eh, go keep all your bra here. go! now! ' Me, ' yelah yelah. *picks them up and looks at them* Eh, my bra out of shape sia! When you want buy for me mummy? ' Mummy, ' When I struck lottery lah! heheheheheh. ' Me, ' -_- '
Kay, and bestfriend was laughing at me. Busted kan? You watch out! I make sure you dieeeeeee.
Hmpfh. Then tibe2 when I was watching tv shiok2, babyg called to tell me damn shocking news. Don't wanna elaborate here. But in the end, it was the truth and I swear it hurts so much. But fuck it lah. ):

Today's kinda bored. Actually planned to meet boyfriend but tak jadi. Damn sad lah. But I met Chiqka baby! Yay yay~ Met up at the taxi stand. Went to get bubble tea then went to lepak dekat Clementi heights. Chatted a lot, catch up a lot with her. Feeling so much better after talking to her. She went off around 7 plus to meetup with her boyfriend. Heh. Hope to meet you again okay baby!

Exams tomorrow, and believe it or not, I've not even revised a shit.
But nah, can't be bothered. Not in the mood at all.
And anw, I love Lilly Lee Lee babyg and Chiqka baby. ^^

Hey, please just keep those comments you have for me to yourself.
And if you can't take good care of the one you love, don't blame me.
So stop insulting me and all sorts of stuffs okay.
Thank you very much.

I can't be bothered. *rolls eyes.

Ps: SAPE SAPE TERASE, TU KAU PEH PASAL LAH EH!~

So many things happened, in sucha short time.
I swear I couldn't take it all. I swear.

Met Nana Jaynes baby yesterday.
Sumpah best!~ Keluar nan dier boleh jadi giler aku cakap nan kau!
We met at Jurong point and went to eat with mummy and brother.
After eating, went to buy ciggarettes then headed to bugis to get my shoes.
Walked around, then went to get my shoes, then decided to head to Far East.
Trained to Orchard, then we walked around.
Went Far east first. Bought friendship bands with Nana baby. We bought the same colour somemore! Hahaha(: Sweet kan? Dier nak jiwe sangat tu~
Then walked around to look for sundresses. Damn nice. I actually wanted to get this top.
But I didn't have the money. So I asked her to book for me then I'll go get them today. Perhaps? If I have the money lah! Then walked around orchard.
I don't know how long was it since I last stepped into Orchard. Very longggggggg~
Then went Wisma, walked around. Then went to get Famous Amos cookies (!)
SEDAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!~
Walked around. Then decided to go Cineleisure to have dinner together.
Ljssssssss! I don't even know how long I didn't eat okay!
Ate, joked around and she made me laugh like mad. Hahahaha!
Then walked around till we were bored.
She asked to go over to her house, can isap shisha!
Then bus-ed to her house. Was planning to go home yesterday!
We looked at the wrong bus-stop punye timing for the bus 184!
It shows 11.54. But when I went off around 11.30, then we went to see the bus-stop infront of her house, it shows 11.02.
Mungkuk sia! Sumpah aku mungkuk!
We still ran over to the opposite bus-stop to see where it ends. BUKIT PANJANG!
Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
Then went back to Nana's house to think of a solution.
Isap shisha, isap shisha, chatted around.
Then something damn bad happened. I swear I was damn sorry!
Boyfriend, I'm sorry for lieing to you. I hope you know why I did so.
I'm sorry for making you quarrel with Ibu. Making you and her relationship go back to the bad times. I'm really sorry for everything. I know you were damn angry.
Until you asked for a breakup. )': Sigh. It was really the unexpected.
But luckily everything went back to normal. He was going mad. Sigh!
It's all my fault sia. Bodoh sak aku. argh!
Fuck everything okay. Now people's coming and going.
I don't understand why. And I know I won't ever understand..
Damn.
Then I managed to ask ex-boyfriend to send me home.
Went to have supper with him, then he sent me home. Thanks! kalau tidak, aku rase aku mati kat depan road sak.
I reached home around 6. Went to sleep straight away.

Today. I don't know. Damn tired. Damn no mood.
But boyfriend made me smile. Like usual.(:
I don't know the plans for today. Let people ask me out then~